my love..

Do you know how hard it is to love someone so deeply but thinking the person just need you but doesn’t love you? Every day you listen to sad love songs thinking about him and the sweet memory you had with him. Even though his right there beside you, you could not feel him, as before, and even you’re right there in front of him, he could not even see you. You try every single day just to prove to him that you’re better than anyone else and yet it seem as if it’s not important. You try to be the better you, the best for him, but he just too blind to see it all.
How long can you stand pretending to be okay and tough in front of him, when you know that you’re actually weak deep inside? Every single day, the love you have for him seems getting lesser and lesser, not because you start to love him less, but it’s getting harder to show him. He seems to forget that you’re actually there. Trying so hard to make him get through all his problems, instead he’s stuck in the problem, so deep, too deep maybe, till all the sweet memories becoming history and now all that’s left is only pain.
A girl sitting in front of her laptop, watching all the videos and seeing all the pictures that captures all the memories of them, having the sweetest time in their life. She goes through all of the messages and the IM just to remember how it felt to be actually happy. Slowly, her tears run down slowly her cheek. Her eyes, fill with tears, her vision suddenly goes blur, and the past comes right back through her mind.
They met at the coffee shop, she smiles at him, but he never returned them. She became angry and started to ignore the boy. A moment later, her friend came, and sat in front of her. He looked back and saw the boy, earlier. He stands up, and walked towards the boy; shake his hand, as if they knew each other for a long time. Her friend called her name, asked her to come there, and introduce them. One lousy shake hand, then turn their cold introduction to friendship.
Every day since that day, they always were hanging out together. They became closer when the boy gave his shoulder for the girl to cry on when she’s in pain. Slowly, they fall in love, and one day, the boy confesses his love and they became couple.
They start to laugh, having fun together. They have great memories along their relationship. Their lunch at KFC, their dates at the park, near the fountain, in his car where she held his heart and it beats fast and she smiles. All the sweet words of I LOVE YOU and they sleep with each other on the other end of the telephone.
And suddenly it all change when the boy suddenly feel betrayed by his friends. He starts to stop smiling, and getting more tense and angry. She tries to comfort him, but it only gets him angrier. He starts to change, or maybe he stops pretending.
He starts to talks about other girl and how amazing they are. She starts to change, her outfit, appearance, her hair, everything. But somehow, he didn’t notice. Every night after she put him to bed, she cries, thinking when all of this going to end. She prays to GOD every single night, hoping to see him smile again, like before.
Every day, they’re getting further away from each other. She tries to stop seeing him, or gets closer to him, she even stop to say I LOVE YOU, not as much as before. He stops to care about her, her sickness, her getting away from him. He just stops thinking about her.
One fine day, when it starts to get too painful for her, she made a video for him, saying how painful it is for her to keep on pretending that everything is okay for him to get further away from her. She tries not to cries but her tears getting faster runs down her cheek. She braves herself and asks him to let her go, to stop all this pain in her heart.
The next day, their friend that introduce them in the first place, comes to him and deliver a piece of CD to him. When he’s back at his house, he sits in front of his laptop and opens the CD. He sees her inside of the video, letting all her feelings out. He’s feeling sad, a tear runs down his cheek, and he stops it. He tries to call her, but nobody answer. He texts her, saying sorry, but there’s no reply. He gets up, picks up his keys and starts the engine. He arrives at her house, he tries to call for her name, but nobody answer the door.
His phone rings, he picks it up, seeing her name on the screen. He smiles and calls her name, and suddenly his face change. The phone drops, and he kneels to the ground. She’s already gone. A voice over of her, saying she loves him so much, hoping to see him in the future. But for now, she’s leaving as she needs to go somewhere else, far away from him. She hopes that he could smile again like before. A moment later, the phone rings, a text comes in, on the screen four simple words appears. I LOVE YOU SYG...